we are not lost

Aubrey; also Birdie.
Student and writer. Polyamorous and really gay. Chronically ill.
Local queen of cait sidhe. Powered by caffeine, anxiety, and spite.
Jul. 13th, 2011 09:11 pm

Now it's three for to bury all that you have, and it's four for starting over...

mortalcity: Text: "Note the swirling vortex of death." (text | note the swirling vortex of death)
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  • I do not understand Cherry Coke. I don't even really like the taste of it, but I cannot stop drinking it when it exists. I suspect it may have actual crack in it. I'm just saying.

  • Focus problem has partially been solved by taking pills before I go to bed, rather than when I wake up. I am still a little vague about the world, and occasionally catch myself sitting around staring at nothing with my eyes unfocused for god knows how long, but I am at least capable of paying attention to one thing for more than a minute at a time, if I really try. This is progress.

  • I am so fucking restless right now. I want to get in a car and drive forever.

    Well, no, that's not true. I want to get in a car and make someone else drive forever, while I curl up in the front seat and read and write and stare at the landscape.

    Sadly, this is not an option. I think I'll feel better when we move, and I want to do it now. I have not exactly been here longer than any other house I've lived in in my life, but we are coming up on that time, and it makes me unhappy. Unfortunately, I don't know when we're moving or where to, and not knowing just makes the restlessness worse.

    We're supposed to be looking at a few houses on Thursday. Only the fact that my back is trying to kill me (though less than it was a couple days ago) is stopping me from demanding that Beka get me boxes and plastic tubs so I can start packing right fucking now.
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Date: 2011-07-14 02:40 am (UTC)

thatrainbow: (Default)
From: [personal profile] thatrainbow
I would not get you the boxes and tubs even if you did. :P

That said, I know what you mean about the wanting to drive forever. Downside of hopping around for a few years is that staying in one place for too long starts to get uncomfortable.

Hopefully we'll be able to take a little mini roadtrip somewhere soon. Leave the cats at home for a night, take Ace, drive somewhere and stay overnight.
Date: 2011-07-14 02:49 am (UTC)

mortalcity: Two people sitting on a hill, looking at a darkening sky with stars. (stock | with your face all full of stars)
From: [personal profile] mortalcity
Really? You wouldn't? I FEEL SO BETRAYED.

And that would be nice. I really do think the majority of it is wanting to NOT BE IN THIS HOUSE ANYMORE, but. Roadtrips are always a good thing.
Date: 2011-07-14 02:53 am (UTC)

thatrainbow: (Default)
From: [personal profile] thatrainbow
No, not yet, because then we'd just have half-packed boxes everywhere, which is WORSE. -_-
Date: 2011-07-14 02:55 am (UTC)

mortalcity: Text: "Can I assume from your total silence and blank faces that you're all with me?" (text | total silence and blank faces)
From: [personal profile] mortalcity
NO IT IS NOT WORSE. IT IS REASSURING. Half-packed boxes are like a promise.
Date: 2011-07-14 03:01 am (UTC)

thatrainbow: ([rare] bored now/grumble)
From: [personal profile] thatrainbow
*sigh* Once your back isn't acting up.
Date: 2011-07-14 03:01 am (UTC)

mortalcity: Veronica, looking smug. (VM | because I'm awesome)
From: [personal profile] mortalcity
:D You are my favorite.
Date: 2011-07-14 03:03 am (UTC)

thatrainbow: ([rd] lineface)
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Yeah, yeah. ♥
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