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[mortalcity]

I have this horrible restless feeling tonight. I need to write something - anything, all the things - but I'm also so terrified of writing right now that I can't even bring myself to open a notebook or a document. I feel like something's trying to claw its way out of my chest but I just can't let it out and I don't know why.

A few days ago, I had one of my recurring dreams (or actually a couple recurring dreams mashed together) - the creepy house with the yellow room in the attic, and a touch of the hotel that's also a labyrinth. It's not worth explaining, they're just parts of my normal dream landscape that never bode well; there are monsters in those places I don't know and can't fight.

But this time there was an aspect to the house that was never there before: a room on the ground floor, close to the front door (and the entrance to the labyrinth :\), warm and bright even though it didn't have any windows. And the monsters were coming and there was nowhere to run, but I knew I'd be safe anyway if I covered the walls of that room in words, and I did, and I was.

That's how I feel now, just like in that dream, except I don't know the words that will save me, and I'm too paralyzed with irrational terror to even start looking. I just don't know what to do.

Comments

[whatawaytoburn]

So, I was thinking on this while I did the reading and an idea came to me. Are you any good with visualizations? Because perhaps, you can try and bring yourself back to that place. I know it's rather scary, I understand that but if you could bring yourself back tot he room, you could look at the words.

Maybe writing yourself there, using words (not even sentences, just writing out the words you associate with the places) and visualizations to try and bring you back might help. I don't know. Just getting back there and seeing the words that saved you before may help in bringing them back to you now,.

[mortalcity]

I am, actually! I have a mind palace (well, office) I keep for remembering certain kinds of things, and it works very well for me, so getting back to that place... shouldn't be too hard. Even if the dream landscape does have a habit of shifting in random ways... I can approximate it well enough to get there and back.

So, I think I will attempt that when I'm not being besieged by animals wanting attention and see what happens. Thank you for the suggestion! ♥

[whatawaytoburn]

Pfft, think nothing of it. <333 If it works, I'm happy to ahve helped, if not well, good luck. <333