I keep waiting for a change, but I don't know what...

Negotiations on the house we were looking at did not work out for some reason. I think we're supposed to look at another couple tomorrow, but... I so don't care anymore. I just want to be done with this crap.

We haven't even been able to do anything about finding an apartment to stay in until house stuff happens, because the car has been out of commission for a week. It's at the mechanic now - AGAIN - but given how much that helped last time...

I don't know. I have run out of any ability to be optimistic about anything. I'm hungry and tired and cranky and on the verge of tears, I can't think clearly or focus on anything, and I've just about reached the point where talking out loud or acknowledging other people or even existing in the same room with other people is almost physically painful.

I just want anywhere at all that is mine. Barring that, I'd take a quiet, dark room where other humans don't exist. Neither of those things is going to happen any time soon.