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mortalcityOh hey I still exist. It is a new year and this one needs to be better than the last, because another like that will kill me.
We are in a house instead of a trailer now, which is excellent, except that we are still lacking important furniture like bookshelves, neither the office or the bedroom door closes, and we are still waiting on someone to come to put curtains or blinds in the windows. My anxiety makes me feel like someone is always outside watching me at night, so that last part? Not fun.
I am still kind of running from adrenaline and rage from last night, when someone I barely fucking know decided to attack me out of nowhere for... being annoyed that people promised me things and seem to have no intention of following through. Things very important to my life, mental health and productivity. Things that were mine, and were lost due to someone else's incompetence, and that still need to be replaced. But apparently being frustrated by that is not okay.
On the bright side, the resulting explosion got some nasty, manipulative people far out of my life for good, and a lot of people were nice to me. That last part is important, because I needed the reassurance that I wasn't the only one who thought the sudden nastiness over trivial things was totally uncalled for. (Seriously, if you were going to pick something to call me childish and spoiled over, there are way better posts you could have found than that one. But I'm not the one getting her partner to spew venom over unrelated eight-year-old perceived slights, so...)
I am working on worldbuilding for On a Saturday (which is still being restructured, though I'm more sure of what I'm doing now) and Fairies Stole My Girlfriend, because apparently I can't write a single short story without an entire elaborate universe built up around it. (Mostly I just need to know what kind of fairy this minor character is, and a few background details about the setting my main character won't even know about in this story, but because I have to do everything from the ground up, I have to get other things in place before I can decide that. Siiiigh.)
...eventually this universe will have a slightly less ridiculous title, though I'm probably stuck with it on the wiki for the rest of time. I'm okay with that.
We are in a house instead of a trailer now, which is excellent, except that we are still lacking important furniture like bookshelves, neither the office or the bedroom door closes, and we are still waiting on someone to come to put curtains or blinds in the windows. My anxiety makes me feel like someone is always outside watching me at night, so that last part? Not fun.
I am still kind of running from adrenaline and rage from last night, when someone I barely fucking know decided to attack me out of nowhere for... being annoyed that people promised me things and seem to have no intention of following through. Things very important to my life, mental health and productivity. Things that were mine, and were lost due to someone else's incompetence, and that still need to be replaced. But apparently being frustrated by that is not okay.
On the bright side, the resulting explosion got some nasty, manipulative people far out of my life for good, and a lot of people were nice to me. That last part is important, because I needed the reassurance that I wasn't the only one who thought the sudden nastiness over trivial things was totally uncalled for. (Seriously, if you were going to pick something to call me childish and spoiled over, there are way better posts you could have found than that one. But I'm not the one getting her partner to spew venom over unrelated eight-year-old perceived slights, so...)
I am working on worldbuilding for On a Saturday (which is still being restructured, though I'm more sure of what I'm doing now) and Fairies Stole My Girlfriend, because apparently I can't write a single short story without an entire elaborate universe built up around it. (Mostly I just need to know what kind of fairy this minor character is, and a few background details about the setting my main character won't even know about in this story, but because I have to do everything from the ground up, I have to get other things in place before I can decide that. Siiiigh.)
...eventually this universe will have a slightly less ridiculous title, though I'm probably stuck with it on the wiki for the rest of time. I'm okay with that.