we are not lost

Aubrey; also Birdie.
Student and writer. Polyamorous and really gay. Chronically ill.
Local queen of cait sidhe. Powered by caffeine, anxiety, and spite.
mortalcity: Maya Hansen, holding a syringe to her own throat (Marvel | knowing the cost)
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So while in the car, I realized that the reason I am having trouble with this novel I have spent... at least seven years bashing my head against... is that I need to do a complete rehaul of the worldbuilding.

Which I guess is not surprising, the world itself is over ten years old now and I can do better, but I just. Ugh. Why am I dumb. Why. Am I dumb.

But whatever, I know it now, I can stop hating myself for not being able to get this done and do something else about it. In a little while. Right now I'm so frustrated and annoyed at myself I think I need to put the whole world aside and poke at other things for a while.

I'll rebuild the whole thing from the ground up in a few months or so.