Somebody hates me, and I hate somebody too...

[mortalcity]

Blargh. Still not dead. Much as my body is trying to fix that. Those of you who replied to my last post: I really appreciate your love and friendship. I don't have the emotional energy or brains to reply to the comments individually, but. ♥

Anyway, um... still sleeping pretty much constantly? I have a vague suspicion my meds have stopped working, but it's hard to tell, because my sleep schedule is so screwed up I keep forgetting to take my meds and argh, everything is screwed up in my head right now.

Also, I have some kind of pox. ...okay, probably not really, despite my whining to thatrainbow about smallpox, but I have a weird spotty rash over my entire torso, spreading up my neck and down my limbs, and it just keeps getting worse. And I threw up yesterday morning! That was fun.

So yeah. Clinic is happening later today, after Mat wakes up. Hopefully it's something actually fixable and not too expensive, because otherwise I am going to end up clawing my own skin off. And hopefully the doctor doesn't tell me they have no idea what's going on and leave it there, because otherwise I might rip their face off with my teeth.

...this post is not very coherent. I'm gonna blame the Benadryl. Antihistamines always hit me stupidly hard, and I don't even know if it's actually helping the itching - I think it just makes me care less that it does. The point is, I'm sick but alive, and man, any time the universe wants to let up on me just a little, that would be awesome.

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[yetregressing]

If a doctor tells you they don't have any clue what's going on, GIVE ME THEIR NAME AND THE NAME OF THE CLINIC and I will BOTHER THE SHIT OUT OF THEM because it's their stupid JOBS to figure out what is wrong with you. I know this, as a professional medical amateur.

I really will bother the shit out of them, though. Because they can't just tell you 'idk' and send you on your way. IF YOU DIE THE NEXT DAY, THAT'S NEGLIGENCE ON THEIR PART. And I really really really don't want you to die.

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[mortalcity]

YOU WOULD THINK THAT. But every doctor I've talked to in the past several years seems content to tell me "IDK" and send me on my way when I talk to them about my stupid heart problems and vertigo and crap, so... yeah. Not so much with the trusting them to be helpful anymore. :\

[yetregressing]

fffff. It's stuff like this that makes me think casually about just becoming a fucking doctor like my mother not-so-casually hints she wishes I would become. BECAUSE AT LEAST I WOULD DO MY JOB.

...Alternately, we could send you to Dr. House and hope he doesn't fuck something up terribly. AT LEAST HE WOULD BE TRYING.

[harbek]

Good luck with the clinic, hope it gets better.

I feel like I'm sleeping constantly as well, but that's probably the whole "only 6 hours sunlight a day and it never gets properly light" thing. It's no wonder most of Norway gets winter depression and summer insomnia (only 6 hours without sunlight and it never gets properly dark!).

[mortalcity]

Thanks. ♥

And yeah, the differences between the length of days in the summer vs. the winter is still weird for me. I grew up in southern California, where seasons are a mythical thing. I'm normally nocturnal and everything, but I'm pretty sure I would turn into a bear and hibernate all winter if I lived in Norway. XD

[harbek]

Well, considering few girls bother shaving during the winter because we're all bundled up anyway, you do sort of turn into a bear. Hibernation varies. But thankfully I'm used to it, so I don't really end up sleeping more than usual. This sleeping thing has more to do with the fact I have vacation than anything, since I do the same thing in the summer. XD