Nov. 30th, 2011 04:45 pm
I only wanted to begin...
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mortalcityBeing told "no one's going to make you do anything you don't want to do" shouldn't terrify me.
But it does. I want someone to tell me what the right choice is even though that's... like... the opposite of the point of this whole issue I'm having.
Once I get past the fear and guilt and panic, though... it's a good kind of terrified. I think. I think I need it.
...no, I don't want to talk about it or explain right now. I will soon, probably, hopefully. But I can't right now. This post is mostly for my sake, because I keep leaking emotions and can barely keep track of what I'm thinking at any given moment. It's been a weird week for me, that's all.
But it does. I want someone to tell me what the right choice is even though that's... like... the opposite of the point of this whole issue I'm having.
Once I get past the fear and guilt and panic, though... it's a good kind of terrified. I think. I think I need it.
...no, I don't want to talk about it or explain right now. I will soon, probably, hopefully. But I can't right now. This post is mostly for my sake, because I keep leaking emotions and can barely keep track of what I'm thinking at any given moment. It's been a weird week for me, that's all.