This is half a note to myself...

Weeeell crap.

So apparently celexa/citalopram/THE DRUG I AM USING TO KEEP MYSELF SANE can cause abnormal heart rhythms. Usually at a dose several times higher than what I'm taking, but my heart is already doing weird and scary things and I don't really want to push it.

I was planning to ask the doctor to up the dose the next time I go in to talk to her. Now I'm wondering if I should ask about switching meds altogether. Detoxing and adjusting to a whole new med is not something I want to do, especially when this one is working as far as I can tell, but neither is having a heart attack. Yes, it is possible I am being a hypochondriac about this but there is a damn good reason for it.

Of course, it would probably help if I could ever get a doctor to believe there's something wrong with my heart. Because obviously if it's not acting up when they stick a stethoscope on me, I'm just fine.

...real update later, maybe. Cranky brooding and snarling for now, because I just woke up and it's all I'm capable of.