we are not lost

Aubrey; also Birdie.
Fantasy writer. Polyamorous and really gay. Mentally ill and disabled.
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mortalcity: Text: "Note the swirling vortex of death." (text | note the swirling vortex of death)
[personal profile] mortalcity
I really need to find something to do today that's not just being sad and repeatedly refreshing tumblr in the hopes it will distract me. It won't. Tumblr cannot save me.

I keep trying to kick myself into poking at writing things but I don't even know where to start right now. Even just messing with my bullet journal doesn't seem worth the energy. Every time I try to put on something for background noise, I get annoyed with it after a minute or two.

What the fuck do I do with myself when it feels like the world is quietly ending? I've got nothing.
Date: 2017-01-20 05:52 pm (UTC)

alexseanchai: Blue and purple lightning (Default)
From: [personal profile] alexseanchai
There's a quote, I think it's from the finale of Angel. (Never seen it. Just the quote, which I am mangling badly here.) He says, if you knew the world was ending, what would you do? She says, she'd keep on doing the work she's doing: helping people. Not many, and maybe not much, but she'd keep at it.

There's also the starfish story. The little kid and the beach covered in starfish that will die out of the water. Can't get enough starfish back in the ocean to make a difference to the starfish collectively. Can make a difference to that starfish, and that one, and that one.

Take care of yourself, okay? It's okay if the only person you can help is you.
Date: 2017-01-22 06:09 pm (UTC)

alexseanchai: Blue and purple lightning (Default)
From: [personal profile] alexseanchai

*nod* Just keep taking care of yourself.

Date: 2017-01-20 05:53 pm (UTC)

rootsofthestories: A woman wandering into the forest (Default)
From: [personal profile] rootsofthestories
This is pretty much where I'm at too. I want to do things but thinking past ohgodohgodohgod is really hard and it's making me twitchy.

If you need someone to talk to, poke me. We can maybe distract each other or something.
Date: 2017-01-22 04:05 pm (UTC)

rootsofthestories: A woman wandering into the forest (Default)
From: [personal profile] rootsofthestories
Yeah, will do. My brain keeps going back and forth between "Nest in ALL the distractions' and "ohgodohgodohogodohgod".

In the end, everything is still awful though. Ugh.
Date: 2017-01-21 03:43 pm (UTC)

silveradept: A kodama with a trombone. The trombone is playing music, even though it is held in a rest position (Default)
From: [personal profile] silveradept
Write what you have, maybe? It might help just to get the feelings down on paper.